I resisted having to figure out why or what caused the problem but I was just aware that somehow my thinking was leading to it. Then I left it alone, went about my treatments and whenever I thought about it (which was often because it was very painful) I just relaxed into knowing that on some higher level everything would be resolved. I put my intention out there (I asked "him upstairs" LOL) to wanting to see something that I was not yet seeing clearly and went about my business. Occasionally - when in a very peaceful state of mind - I noticed how the pain and restrictions eased but then always came back when I started to think about it..... It was then a conscious choice to completely leave it to something bigger than myself rather than a "doing", I simply gave myself (and my issue) to life itself knowing that I am okay no matter what.
I somehow had to get my head around what I had really realized and after a while I was able to articulate it.......... it was simply an old belief I must have held a hell of a lot of time and which I know is not true. Nonetheless it had caused this burden I have carried around for I guess well over 30 years......... I couldn't (and still can't) stop sighing, at long last I can breathe deeply!! A struggle I wasn't even aware of consciously but now, what a difference!! All down to ONE single thought!! What it was??
I have seen all my life, everything I did and every person I ever interacted with through the eyes of "I am not good enough" and tried to be better all the time. What a struggle!! I can't thank God enough for this revelation. I'm finally free to be me, just the way I am! God knows, how this is going to change my life (once more through this simple bit of understanding)... fact is the shoulder is 80% back to normal (even the Osteopath confirmed it as astounding this morning!), the rest will heal now in its time, I'm sure, with all this weight off!! ;-)