I have just been for my run again. Am sorry if that is a bit boring after my last post but I have just realized something I would like to share with you and the story about my run just illustrates it.
Today I struggled. It was the most difficult run I have ever done and all the way I thought I was slower than ever, my legs were heavier and all along I was fighting against wanting to give up and just walk. My mind was busy although I kept reminding myself that I was creating lots of stress! None the less I managed to do the same route like the other day and even against a much stronger wind! And at the end a huge surprise awaited me when I checked the time and I had done it in less than 27 minutes!!! The fastest one ever!! :-) wow!!
While I was doing my stretching afterwards I was reflecting how that can be......... and then it dawned on me!! I have created lots of expectations and beliefs around that run and my physical fitness and I was now seeing it all through those eyes!! I think I know this run now and so I have lots of thinking about it before I am even there..... No wonder my mind is busy comparing all the information in my head with what I actually find along the way and trying to make sense of it!! It was weighing heavy on my shoulders while I could have really enjoyed it... if I had only been aware of just being present with it... Surely we might not feel the same every day and the same route can be easier some days than others. But I made it difficult for myself because I didn't allow myself to see the run and my own abilities with "fresh eyes" and just see what unfolds...... And, all that would have been necessary, was just to realize what I was doing and to let the natural equilibrium reappear in just getting myself out of the way.... So all that is ever required to get back to peace of mind, is to stop messing around with a system that already functions perfectly.......
Now am just wondering how many things we see a certain way because we think "we know"......
more to reflect on LOL.............. ;-)
Today I struggled. It was the most difficult run I have ever done and all the way I thought I was slower than ever, my legs were heavier and all along I was fighting against wanting to give up and just walk. My mind was busy although I kept reminding myself that I was creating lots of stress! None the less I managed to do the same route like the other day and even against a much stronger wind! And at the end a huge surprise awaited me when I checked the time and I had done it in less than 27 minutes!!! The fastest one ever!! :-) wow!!
While I was doing my stretching afterwards I was reflecting how that can be......... and then it dawned on me!! I have created lots of expectations and beliefs around that run and my physical fitness and I was now seeing it all through those eyes!! I think I know this run now and so I have lots of thinking about it before I am even there..... No wonder my mind is busy comparing all the information in my head with what I actually find along the way and trying to make sense of it!! It was weighing heavy on my shoulders while I could have really enjoyed it... if I had only been aware of just being present with it... Surely we might not feel the same every day and the same route can be easier some days than others. But I made it difficult for myself because I didn't allow myself to see the run and my own abilities with "fresh eyes" and just see what unfolds...... And, all that would have been necessary, was just to realize what I was doing and to let the natural equilibrium reappear in just getting myself out of the way.... So all that is ever required to get back to peace of mind, is to stop messing around with a system that already functions perfectly.......
Now am just wondering how many things we see a certain way because we think "we know"......
more to reflect on LOL.............. ;-)
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